for you to read

it occurred to me that there are some things that others need to know about you.and so i dedicate this entry to all who knows me and don't actually hate me.but things might change after reading this.

my religion
sadly,i have none.in the past,i embraced buddhism and taoism under the influence of my family.i was too young to know what gods i was praying to,their origins,what they wanna achieve of the universe and such.and the never-ending war between christianity and islam has led me to believe that there is no god,but there's one Creator.
in my opinion,or my overactive imagination,the Creator is an old man who is really bored just sitting around and having nothing to do except staring into the black canvas which has enveloped him since he popped out of nowhere.so to kill boredom,he did something funny(maybe he farted but i don't know) and accidentally created some matter.and so the creation of the universe starts.planets stars nebulas blackholes comets meteors and all those you-know-whats.when the novelty wore off,he created yes you know,life.living things.he just placed some snot on Earth and moved on.and somehow we slowly evolved into dinosaurs and mammalians and yeah humans.having never seen such interesting creatures before,he decided to play with us for a little while.so he thought it'd be cool to create some confusion amongst us and introduced all the different ideologies of gods and goddesses.so now,we have for ourselves the thousands of different religions that appeared out of nowhere.another possibility is that the Creator took on many forms(he doesn't like us to see him old and haggard) and visited Earth,and some of us who saw him thought he's the Almighty(he is,alright) and worshipped him.
end of the day,he's the one having fun and manipulating all of us.some sort of sicko.and that's why i don't believe in god.but i still carry around my amulet and offer jossticks to Guanyin.Why?Because i love my family.
actually,i really think there is only one Creator and he is fooling around.we are nothing but toys.and he makes you do what you're doing.shit he's making me type this.
but one thing you should know,i don't scoff at religious people.i let them believe what they want to believe,which brings me to the next point.

my ideals
i think everyone is free to do and think what they want.but they will have to deal with the consequences.especially if it affects me in a bad way.
you cannot simple tell someone to do or not do something unless you are capable of it yourself.
e.g "Jensen don't shake your leg."(those out-of-habit kind)
"But you're shaking also!?!"
"............"
sometimes i let my friends commit mistakes even though i can stop them from doing so.i'm not evil,i just want them to learn.
if you like being fat,that's fine with me.but if you dread the flab and still not do anything about it,don't blame me for chiding you and kicking your sad sorry fat ass.
the only way to health is exercising and eating right.and having a positive mindset.
it's wrong to take money liberally from your parents.even if you know you're gonna pay them back someday.it's just wrong.they didn't give birth to you because they love you.it's because they love each other.so to start with,your existence is based solely on their union.
it's perfectly alright to dream.but not doing anything to realise it when you want it real badly is not.because you'll only hurt yourself when you keep thinking it's impossible.
Without love we perish.
males and females can maintain purely platonic relationships.i don't understand why some people think going out for lunch/dinner/movie with a girl-friend means you're trying to do something cheeky.
i support gay couples.they accept who they are,they love who they want to.it baffles me why people think gay couples are disgusting and gross.why can't heterosexuals be disgusting?what do you see when two men kiss each other?i see two humans madly in love.i just hope they don't kiss me.
i know i can rely on my friends.if not they wouldn't call me theirs.
embrace your religion.but please believe in it.
don't force your ideals on me,because i will never do the same to you.at least not anymore.not ever.

my favourites
food: roti prata from Casuarina Curry(Upper Thomson Rd),anything cooked by mom,anything given to me,DARK VELVETY CHOCOLATE
drink: plain water,milk,coffee sometimes(mocha pls,it has chocolate in it)
team: Manchester United FC,Hwachong Canoeing Team 2002
activity: baking,climbing,people-watching in school or orchard,hanging out with friends just talking crap
curseword: Fucking hell,fuck (I've overgrown the hokkien ones.don't use them unless im real pissed)
superhero: Spiderman
animal: tiger
actresses: Julia Roberts, Cameron Diaz.they have the most charming smiles.
colour: brown,all shades of green
band: none.I embrace all good rock music.except heavy metal.you're too noisy and cacophonic.
cake: cheesecake, carrot cake, fruitcake
cookie: Nantucket dark chocolate chunk cookies by Pepperidge Farm,those baked by marie,those baked by me

i don't like
arsenal,chelsea,liverpool.
japanese food.
PRCs and all those high-and-mighty snobs from all over the world.
liars,i'm ok with white lies cos i do that sometimes.
collared shirts.but i look good in some of them.sucks.
double-crossers,hypocrites,don't-practise-what-they-preaches,snobs

Here you have it.Just some of my thoughts.
what's important is be happy about what you're doing,even if you're not,it may be something you need to do to stay happy.Smile more.You may be the next billianaire.
JENSEN