Apple Crumble Anyone?

can't help but say this

"eh,Fuck you understand?"

that's to all the tests and exams i'm ever gonna take.

for you to read

it occurred to me that there are some things that others need to know about you.and so i dedicate this entry to all who knows me and don't actually hate me.but things might change after reading this.

my religion
sadly,i have none.in the past,i embraced buddhism and taoism under the influence of my family.i was too young to know what gods i was praying to,their origins,what they wanna achieve of the universe and such.and the never-ending war between christianity and islam has led me to believe that there is no god,but there's one Creator.
in my opinion,or my overactive imagination,the Creator is an old man who is really bored just sitting around and having nothing to do except staring into the black canvas which has enveloped him since he popped out of nowhere.so to kill boredom,he did something funny(maybe he farted but i don't know) and accidentally created some matter.and so the creation of the universe starts.planets stars nebulas blackholes comets meteors and all those you-know-whats.when the novelty wore off,he created yes you know,life.living things.he just placed some snot on Earth and moved on.and somehow we slowly evolved into dinosaurs and mammalians and yeah humans.having never seen such interesting creatures before,he decided to play with us for a little while.so he thought it'd be cool to create some confusion amongst us and introduced all the different ideologies of gods and goddesses.so now,we have for ourselves the thousands of different religions that appeared out of nowhere.another possibility is that the Creator took on many forms(he doesn't like us to see him old and haggard) and visited Earth,and some of us who saw him thought he's the Almighty(he is,alright) and worshipped him.
end of the day,he's the one having fun and manipulating all of us.some sort of sicko.and that's why i don't believe in god.but i still carry around my amulet and offer jossticks to Guanyin.Why?Because i love my family.
actually,i really think there is only one Creator and he is fooling around.we are nothing but toys.and he makes you do what you're doing.shit he's making me type this.
but one thing you should know,i don't scoff at religious people.i let them believe what they want to believe,which brings me to the next point.

my ideals
i think everyone is free to do and think what they want.but they will have to deal with the consequences.especially if it affects me in a bad way.
you cannot simple tell someone to do or not do something unless you are capable of it yourself.
e.g "Jensen don't shake your leg."(those out-of-habit kind)
"But you're shaking also!?!"
"............"
sometimes i let my friends commit mistakes even though i can stop them from doing so.i'm not evil,i just want them to learn.
if you like being fat,that's fine with me.but if you dread the flab and still not do anything about it,don't blame me for chiding you and kicking your sad sorry fat ass.
the only way to health is exercising and eating right.and having a positive mindset.
it's wrong to take money liberally from your parents.even if you know you're gonna pay them back someday.it's just wrong.they didn't give birth to you because they love you.it's because they love each other.so to start with,your existence is based solely on their union.
it's perfectly alright to dream.but not doing anything to realise it when you want it real badly is not.because you'll only hurt yourself when you keep thinking it's impossible.
Without love we perish.
males and females can maintain purely platonic relationships.i don't understand why some people think going out for lunch/dinner/movie with a girl-friend means you're trying to do something cheeky.
i support gay couples.they accept who they are,they love who they want to.it baffles me why people think gay couples are disgusting and gross.why can't heterosexuals be disgusting?what do you see when two men kiss each other?i see two humans madly in love.i just hope they don't kiss me.
i know i can rely on my friends.if not they wouldn't call me theirs.
embrace your religion.but please believe in it.
don't force your ideals on me,because i will never do the same to you.at least not anymore.not ever.

my favourites
food: roti prata from Casuarina Curry(Upper Thomson Rd),anything cooked by mom,anything given to me,DARK VELVETY CHOCOLATE
drink: plain water,milk,coffee sometimes(mocha pls,it has chocolate in it)
team: Manchester United FC,Hwachong Canoeing Team 2002
activity: baking,climbing,people-watching in school or orchard,hanging out with friends just talking crap
curseword: Fucking hell,fuck (I've overgrown the hokkien ones.don't use them unless im real pissed)
superhero: Spiderman
animal: tiger
actresses: Julia Roberts, Cameron Diaz.they have the most charming smiles.
colour: brown,all shades of green
band: none.I embrace all good rock music.except heavy metal.you're too noisy and cacophonic.
cake: cheesecake, carrot cake, fruitcake
cookie: Nantucket dark chocolate chunk cookies by Pepperidge Farm,those baked by marie,those baked by me

i don't like
arsenal,chelsea,liverpool.
japanese food.
PRCs and all those high-and-mighty snobs from all over the world.
liars,i'm ok with white lies cos i do that sometimes.
collared shirts.but i look good in some of them.sucks.
double-crossers,hypocrites,don't-practise-what-they-preaches,snobs

Here you have it.Just some of my thoughts.
what's important is be happy about what you're doing,even if you're not,it may be something you need to do to stay happy.Smile more.You may be the next billianaire.
JENSEN

blow in angmolika's direction.we have nukes too,you know?

midautumn sky

a jet flew by the moon.maybe it was going down in flames.
the jam in bishan park carpark.overwhelming response for the MAF party.

damn fucking noisy.

when your dearest is stolen,
your world crumbles.
You cry.
Then it dawns upon you that there is still life.

They never try to understand.
You live on.
And when you are about to fulfill your love,
life ends.

your yearning for her screams for reciprocation.
what was once yours broke free.
you end up Love's victim,
a lovefool.

Day 6 by Jensen and the Running Boulders

I woke up with an ache
in my deltoids and my sides
along with a throbbing headache

Downed two panadols and slept for an hour
read my maths notes
the afternoon's so sour

Read "Modern Ranch Living" for the second time
Kendra's not much different from me
fitness buff and angry teen
oh i can't find anything to rhyme

Chorus
a lazy saturday
spent in my room on my bed
listening to the radio
thinking about that bouldering problem
a sleepyhead jensen
never gets things done always
but today is an exception
'cause he wiped his bedroom windows

Oh are you any different from me
you love your lazy saturdays too
when Life starts to suck a little
you just scream in its face
"Fuck You!!!"

Chorus

And everything stays the same
you and me are left to play this game again

*jensen strums guitar but only manages to blister his fingers*

Sing to the tune of "Baby One More Time" by Britney "i'm pregnant not fat" Spears

Surprises

A pleasant surprise from 67.Thanks gabriel for being so understanding and getting a pair of cool-looking rock shoes for me.what a pity it didn't fit.and the candle on my brownie was a blast.haha.

To all those who's never seen a rock shoe,this is it.something like those the ancient chinese wore,the 3-inch binding shoes those demure ladies wear to keep their feet small.but theirs were never as cool as this.

This the pair i exchanged for.looks real flashy but it fits like a second skin.well,spiderman wears red.now i'm ready to shoot webs.

the shoe box is damn funky.there's one in malay.

And i took this shot from bus 96.pink sky.marie,you'd kill to be here.haha.

Diary on the Run

Spent about 10 or so minutes running on grass today.luckily the knees didn't act up.
Spent 10 or so minutes trying to get the grass bits off my socks.
Just you wait,i'll hit the tarmac soon to come.

blow

my left knee was chui.never mind that.
now my right knee also chui.never mind that.
but then my right ankle also chui.now what the hell is that all about?
this crazy problem that my climbing instructor gave me ruined everything.when i eventually reached the final jug,i was mad and all that.then it gave way.and i fell.3 metres.right leg straight down towards the floor.and so, right ankle was shocked,right knee too.
how am i gonna run?
i'm falling apart.literally.
help.
consolation.i almost completed the warm-up route for those zai climbers in the NUS team.lotsa work to do.
and thanks 67 for the climbing shoes.though they don't fit,i still regard them as my first ever pair of climbing shoes.love them.
cheerios.
how do you smile with multiple injuries?
smile with pain.

swinging single

i am single,therefore i can:
sleep till whatever time i want.
do what i want without caring about how the other person will feel.
ogle at da ladies.
buaya around.
commit suicide with one less person to worry about.
hug anyone i want.
talk as much as i want.

if i am attached,i will:
be tracked every now and then.lose some freedom.
be damn good at lying.
be damn good in bed.
have someone to hug when i need it.

that's why i'm SINGLE!and still loving it.
ha ha ha.
so,who's got some nice girl to introduce?Chocolate ice queen is not enough to fill my insatiable appetite.

distraught

I am so because my left knee rejected my run.it's asking for a holiday getaway to the Maldives.so now's the time to study huh?what shit is that,think i'll just go climb.the kenyan will be back.

booking out,see my ******
saw her with another man
heartbroken,back to army
with my rifle and my buddy and me

megawatt

what a day.
that lousy econs TA really cannot make it.he doesn't know why the MC cuts the minimum point of the AC and AVC curve.and guess who had to help him out?of course me la.haha.nothing to hao lian.but i'm damn ecstatic that i got to humiliate him.i seriously think he's an illegal immigrant who found an econs textbook in the garbage centre and tried his luck in NUS and the damn econs department was quite impressed with how he managed to recite the entire text inside out.guess he left out the MC curve part.
nasty.

and let's talk a bit about Ice Queen.IQ is not really an ice queen after all.why?because her megawatt toothy smile melts me.i go ga-ga whenever i see it.and if she is an ice queen she'll die everytime she smiles.i'm totally besotted.i'll wait for this one heartwarming moment every lecture.
buay tahan.damn rou ma.
oh and guess what?she's the colour of chocolate!a few shades lighter actually.i like......

life.it ain't easy

got my physics webassign wrong again.big blow to the ego.it just sucks rite engin ppl?

Some snapshots. see that little spectrum?got it on a bus seat in clementi.haha.had to be discreet abt taking the photo cos there was an old auntie at the busstop.don't want her to think i sua ku.it's really a sight to behold.beauty comes from the most unexpected places.

just another sunset.but i like how the sun plays peekaboo. funky clouds!they looked like cellulite.haha.sorry ladies,if only it looked as good on you.

and this is the damn storm that ruined my sunday.was supposed to meet up with kenneth and jessica for a study session when this torrential rain killed any chances of me getting out of the house.in the end,i studied more.and vacuumed the floor.and scrubbed my parents' fan.and did push-ups and all sorts of funny exercises.and made tasty brownies.

there's no use biting the screen.you can't taste it.anyway how many of you still have tt old-school plate with those carp and rooster designs on it?like the on in the last pic.mine's authentic la haha.real cool.anyway baking process today was smooth.unlike cookie-making.total chaos.i prepared like a pro today.real encouraging.just a piece of advice.next time you bake or cook something,it's more convenient to group the ingredients into batches that are thrown in together.this way you won't mess up as badly as i did last time.

and i've decided.i'm not gonna mug like a chinaman anymore.actually i think they lose to the indians.i'm not gonna mug like an India indian anymore.i need a social life.i'll get one.i mean i'll get it back.

burst into song

chilling at home on a saturday
i feel like neither here nor there
it's wonderful not doing any work now
but it sits there waiting for me

if there's one thing i wanna do now
it's to go out for a walk in town
look at all those pretty faces
and get that goddamn jacket i need

chorus
i don't wanna study no more
i just wanna chill eat run climb
and everything just goes by like i don't exist
so no one can judge me

three weeks to the fucking midterm
school is a hell of a place to boot
what happened to the fun times i had last time
when we were carefree and young

chorus

but it's waiting right there for me
the lone ranger in the sea of lovers

chorus


sing to the tune of "Old MacDonald had a Farm"

get a life

and i crumble.i fall.
schoolwork has taken its toll on me.it's only been 4 weeks and i'm on the verge of succumbing to the temptation of giving it all up.and just chill and relak.run and climb.sleep in lectures,or preferably in the comfort of my own bed.study in my underwear at home.don't have to worry about being late for lectures and tutorials.
and i know it's all fantasy.
so,now you've read this,why don't you ask me out?I need my life back.

she sits there alone.i wonder.
the seat beside me is empty.i invite you.