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Friday, September 28

I'm used to being the bad guy.
Way back in NCC, I was the foil to my IC's nice master sergeant. I was the terror, the one spouting four-letter words and knocking people down. But luckily, when training is over, I'm still good friends with the juniors.
In army, I am the one who argues with the sergeant. Not that I love conflicts, I just couldn't take it lying down. When someone asks the platoon if they are useless, you don't answer yes. Simple as that. But the gutless idiots just went "yes sergeant". Wow, I couldn't believe my ears. These people have no dignity of any sort. I replied, "Sergeant, we are not useless ok, it's just that we didn't clear the rubbish, does that make us useless?" I think he was stunned and so just sent us to our next lesson. My impression of the platoon became worse. But a few supported me of course. Just that they didn't make any noise.
And now, I just want our gym to be clean and green with 3 huge rooms. Which is why I always want to throw away all the unclaimed stuff which is cluttering up the space. I feel bad having to clear things that may still belong to people, but now that we've issued warnings and announcements that we're clearing out, if anything happens to their belongings, it's not my fault. True, I threw them away without asking you, but I already told you I'll do that if it's not claimed. Whatever. I will be the bad guy for the gym's sake.
I hate reprimanding people. I always feel bad doing so. The other party will feel bad and ill-treated, I'll feel bad for having to do it so openly. But sometimes, people won't learn if you tell them nicely. A nudge goes to a push to a shove. And in the end, things get done, but egos are hurt. For the sake of the people I scold, I'll take the bad-guy tag.
But I don't want to do it again if there is no need to.

Bad Guy Jensen.

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