I kena tagged sia....

My peng3 you4 Watson tagged me just when i was about to watch my maths webcast. so now i must blog about it, if not i'll turn into Danny De Vito in 5 hours if i don't do so.

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same.

Here's mine.
1. Jogging to somewhere peaceful and serene with beautiful scenery, out of the city's reach and sitting down somewhere doing some reflection or just humming some songs.

2. Hanging around with friends, just anywhere, and talk about everything under the sun.

3. Climbing around, chilling out and looking at the cute girls in the rock gym.

4. Eat chocolate.enough said.

5. Standing by my window, spacing out or just plain daydreaming.

My turn to tag u all liao.

wither

the post goes something like this:
i'm bugged by some problems that didn't niggle at me as much as before.
i'm losing steam study-wise.even though i'm not bothered by what CAP i get, i'm very bothered by this lack of verve to strive. the beginning of this sem saw me keeping up with all lectures and tutorials,though i still am very much doing my lectures and reading my notes,i just can't push myself in this last stretch before the finals.i'm not thinking as much about the holidays as the same period last sem,but i don't know what is this thing that eats away my energy.
someone help me get my act together.

this frustrates me more.
i realised i'm not as strong a person as i thought i was.
partly due to the fact that these little things(or not so little after all) get to me easily and distract me, and partly due to the fact that i can't move on as easily as i'd love to. i have immense inertia, there is always this wall in front of me that stops me from achieving greater things. when this(any) nice girl comes around, i always chicken out.there is hardly any courage in me that boosts my confidence to go for it,any of those that i had to go for that last tile or to ask seemingly dumb questions that no one dares ask went hide somewhere obscure.not just relationship-wise.i have ambitions too.those of you who know me better should know that i'd love to open a cafe dishing out niceties to everyone who comes along.but what have i done other than talk about it?i don't see anything.and what's this safety net thing about studying engine so i have something to fall back on?thinking of failure before even trying,this will do me in.i lack the initiative to go for what i love.i love climbing but i only climb once a week,only when the school rock gym is open.there is hardly anyone i know well that can match my urge to climb everyday.and i'm not doing anything to satisfy my craving.what the hell.i need to get moving.be braver.but i don't know how because i feel so heavy-hearted everytime i know lots of effort is needed to keep it going.
I'm too logical a person. i want to be more spontaneous, act from the heart with less things going through my head.every little thing passes through my head,every possible consequence and effects it has on me and everyone.and this stops me from doing some things that i'd love to do.why am i not in the climbing team yet?the stupid reason is because i'm afraid i would lose interest after some time,so i decided to try it out for a year.and look at all the climbing time i lost.life will be more fun if i am more impromptu and unpredictable.but what are the consequences?
i'm not losing control or losing my mind.just losing grip on reality and myself.
does this happen all the time?
i hope it never comes again,cos it is depressing.

guess they get this a lot

for the past hour,i was typing this post that i struggled through due to some inner demons.
now you won't get to see it cos blogger ate it up.
maybe it was never meant for your eyes,best kept to myself.
but i can't fight this.
FUCK YOU BLOGGER.YOU BLOODY CHEEBYE.FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND?I HOPE YOU SEE THIS AND CANCEL MY ACCOUNT,AT LEAST THEN YOU"LL KNOW YOU SUCK FUCKING BIG FUCKING TIME.

Lifehouse - You and Me

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why,

I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right

I'm tripping on words

You've got my head spinning

I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why,

I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now

I can't quite figure out

Everything she does is beautiful

Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to lose

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why,

I can't keep my eyes off of you

and me and all of the people with nothing to do

Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people

And I don't know why,

I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it? And in what month?

This clock never seemed so alive

CLIMB!

im definitely gonna join the climbing team next sem.why?
the girls are cute.
camaraderie and team spirit is there.
and she caught my eye with a little twinkling of her braces.
climb climb all over the place.

they taught me to see

an opportunity of a lifetime came out of the blue. it taught me something new, something important.something that put my life in perspective.
sunday morning, eyes were barely open when i looked at my phone and found a message from a friend in need. apparently, she got pangseh by some ntu people, and needed me to help out at the national vertical marathon. well, so I ate my brekkie,shat and rushed off to suntec all sweaty from fear of reaching there late. i had no idea what i was in for.
upon arrival, i was told i will be an escort to a kid taking part in the special olympics of the national vertical marathon. ntu had invited 6 school under MINDS to join in the fun, and so the kids will be running a relay up suntec tower 4.
my kid was called "mumble-mumble-mumble-DIN" cos i cud only catch the last syllable, so let's call him din. din is 15 years old, malay, lanky, from Towner Gardens School and looks like any of us. but i don't know what's bugging him that put him in MINDS since i didn't bother asking anyone. he was real shy, so i had to crap a lot to him. and we kept doing warm-up exercises that he kept forgetting. it was more than an hour before our race commenced.
we were in-charge of the 2nd leg,climbing 10 storeys up the 43-storey tower.he was tagged by the first runner, we started the ascent and he was going on like a train,though not very fast.din didn't give up,he gave everything he got and of cos,hit home.
end of it all,watching him walk up the stage with everyone else from the special schools made me think. they can do what i can most of the time,just tt they need some assistance and more time, so why does everyone think they are not gonna make it,and never gonna live a normal life? they don't know wat is a normal life, and so to them they are normal,we are the abnormal ones,the weirdoes.
my first experience with these "under-privileged" children taught me to look at myself.and i'm convinced that there is nothing anyone can tell me to live the way i want.did i feel good helping them?i don't.i feel bad that all we can do for them is help them.how many are giving them chances?
and this will not spawn a goodwill ambassador in me.
how many of you can look at them in the eye, tell them they're great, and actually mean it?
i can't.because my heart is not open yet.
and as i see the crowd yesterday looking at the kids like they're aliens, it gets harder to trust our hearts.
but do everyone a favour by wishing them well sincerely, it gives them confidence.
kudos to the brave people who help the needy wholeheartedly and without reservations, you are someone i can't be.

aha!

i'm leading a very healthy life right now.
been running regularly, climbing once a week, gym sessions are still on and i'm not eating too much fatty food. my body's always raring to go though my mind is not so.feeling more alive than i've felt for quite a while.
if one day, all sports are banned, it will be the day i die. i see no point in living if there is no outlet for my boundless energy.
oh sports.you make me.

Eat.Talk.Crab.Crap.

i had my very first taste of chilli crab in about 4 years last friday.don't expect any photos of it.it went down my throat.
last friday was one of the happier days i can remember since uni started.a lot of talkcock with yihui,chiew n yiren.my tutorial buddies.it's a relief and blessing to have got to know them beter this sem.last sem we were still acquantainces.i hope my trash-talking and crazy antics worked in my favour this time round.now, i guess there are no barriers to what we can crap about.even g-strings la....haha.happy birthday chiew.
hope this chapter remains open-ended, with many happy days to come.and less stressful ones too.