Can you please show a little affection? I am really struggling here. I just want to hold your hand, get a little peck on the cheek like before, get a hug from you like before. You haven't been the same since you came back. I don't care if your goals have changed, or your outlook in life. But you no longer express your love anymore. I really don't feel loved. Sometimes I just wish you will hold my hand like last time and I know everything will be alright. But now I get this dreaded feeling that you don't care as much anymore. Love is in the little things. And I don't feel these little things, let alone big surprises or whatever there is. I wish I can tell you all these, but I know this will definitely evoke a negative response, you wondering why I'm always demanding this and that. I wish you can be the one demanding things, because then I know that at least you care about this relationship. But can I tell you this without repercussions? Is my simple request not simple enough? Can I ask for a little affection? Please keep this alive. I've been trying real hard to make it not so boring, but more often than not I'm met with muted responses. Please don't judge me by my appearance. I really can't help the black face. I'm already frustrated by the lack of time we spend together. This just makes it worse. I don't want this dreaded feeling.

Hi blog. I'm lonely. Can you talk?

Rockclimbing

Climbing is about adventure. The exploration of the body and mind's extremes and possibilities. The wandering into territories new to you and climbing walls that you pioneered or others have pioneered. It is a sport that draws you into a world of thrill-seeking and nature-loving. It is different from other sports such that you are always in a different setting when you travel to other places to climb, and you experience something new everytime, be it stormy weather or more insect bites. Any other sport fails to give you this enriching opportunity as all you need is a court or apparatus and the venue doesn't matter at all. Unless of course, its an outdoor sport.
The most beautiful routes in the world are the ones that matter the most to you. You may have only tried a 6a, but it may be the most precious moment in your climbing experience because of the beauty of the line, or it made you feel like you had your heart in your mouth, or you learnt an important life lesson like never disturb a wasp nest or wear a helmet everytime. Climbing is so beautiful in the sense that people are enveloped by nature's grace everytime they go up the rock, and they appreciate nature for having carved out a possible way up this rock so that we can learn how our bodies move as well as look at what is around us from another perspective. We also learn to appreciate the people we climb with, whom we trust our lives with when we go up a route, spotting and belaying us faithfully all the time that we are hangdogging.
Go out there and discover for yourself what makes you climb. See for yourself what nature has to offer. Love climbing.

BYE

Hi to all those who drop by to catch little morsels of my life.
Sad to say, I've lost the verve to update my endeavors online and so I've decided to end this blog's life.
I've always preferred meeting face to face rather than broadcasting my life so that you guys know what I've been up to, so here's my number (hp 92985141). If you miss me (haha,right...) or want to meet up with me for old time's sake, just drop me a SMS or give me a call! I'm looking forward to meeting you people.
This blog will still exist because all the links of your blogs are still around. Though you won't have a chance to read anymore of my rubbish, I'll still keep in touch with your junk.
Farewell fruitofgod.blogspot.com.

first place in boulderactive 08 intermediate men.
i don't know if this is liberation or an extra sack of rice on my sun-beaten back.
when expectations are high and you can't meet them, you feel like you let people down. And what's worse, people expect me to be much stronger now that i'm in open men.
damn expectations. i always get the better of you.

be gracious.
be true.
be forgiving and ever-loving.
it's hard.

When I'm old

I want to be riding a Harley Davidson Night Train with an old wrinkled lady hugging my back.

The Late Greats - Hours

There you are, I need you here.
I've been waiting for hours,
To see you.

I've been in the fog, so alone.
Come back for me,
Please.

There you are, I need you here.
I've been waiting for hours.

I've been in the fog, so alone.
Come back for me,
Come back for me.

I'm losing sight of you.
I'm losing sight of you.
I'm losing sight of you.
I'm losing sight of you.

There you are, I need you here.
I've been waiting for hours.

I've been in the fog, so alone.
Come back for me,
Please.