without love we perish

Friday, March 5

Can you please show a little affection? I am really struggling here. I just want to hold your hand, get a little peck on the cheek like before, get a hug from you like before. You haven't been the same since you came back. I don't care if your goals have changed, or your outlook in life. But you no longer express your love anymore. I really don't feel loved. Sometimes I just wish you will hold my hand like last time and I know everything will be alright. But now I get this dreaded feeling that you don't care as much anymore. Love is in the little things. And I don't feel these little things, let alone big surprises or whatever there is. I wish I can tell you all these, but I know this will definitely evoke a negative response, you wondering why I'm always demanding this and that. I wish you can be the one demanding things, because then I know that at least you care about this relationship. But can I tell you this without repercussions? Is my simple request not simple enough? Can I ask for a little affection? Please keep this alive. I've been trying real hard to make it not so boring, but more often than not I'm met with muted responses. Please don't judge me by my appearance. I really can't help the black face. I'm already frustrated by the lack of time we spend together. This just makes it worse. I don't want this dreaded feeling.
Hi blog. I'm lonely. Can you talk?